image from homesick clothing
michael was away again this past weekend in virginia. although i miss him, i do value alone time. depending on my mood, i can be productive without distraction, or quite the opposite, i can vegetate without feeling guilty. luckily, i got to spend some time with my new found girlfriend, amanda. i got to telling her about me, before meeting michael. you now how girls do,.. sharing old photos, funny stories, etc. during that evening i realized that nobody here knows me prior to my romance with michael. kind of cool if you want to change identities i guess. but it was a small realization that kind of got me bummed for about a 24 hour period. it was almost as if it hadn't hit me until this day: i changed my life ...and my lifestyle. in efforts to comfort me, M asked me to list the things i miss the most. but it's not so black and white. i could individually select 'things' but i don't have that kind of time. if i summed it all up.. i miss the "state of mind." this is nothing against wichita. i like it here. and i think i've adjusted well. i think it takes time to nest into a new place you want to call 'home." just a small case of the blues in facing reality. nothing a little upbeat hipster single can't cure.